I’ve not been feeling well for weeks now.
I have Lupus and usually it just lurks in the background waiting for the right moment to attack. And when it decides to attack – yikes! It causes a lot of pain in many of my body’s joints and makes me just totally exhausted. I’m usually able to keep going with a combination of a lot of rest and often pain medications. Until yesterday.
Yesterday I hobbled out of bed (hadn’t taken any pain medications yet), showered and got ready for the day. In the back of my mind I was thinking, “things just aren’t right”. I had agreed to make a presentation to a local elementary school on my embroidery business – complete with pictures of the machine and samples of my work. So I headed out for the day still thinking about the fact that I was feeling worse than normal.
Halfway through my presentation to kids age 10 through 13, I realized I was getting feverish and needed to get done quick. Of course, they had tons of questions. If I had felt better I would have totally enjoyed every minute of the experience. All I could think of was the fact that I didn’t want to give these kids whatever I had.
To top that off, I had a hair appointment to get my hair cut, and getting in to the little gal that cuts my hair is tough, so I kept the appointment and warned her not to let me breathe on her.
I finally made it home, and collapsed onto the couch, head in hand. There was not a place on my whole body that didn’t hurt. Other than a lucid moment here and there, I didn’t come to until the middle of the night. When I woke up I realized my fever had broke and I was feeling a lot better.
Today everything has changed. I feel tons better – even the Lupus seems to have decided to give me a bit of a break. I was trying to explain to Jim just how bad I felt and finally found just the right term to use.I felt so bad that I didn’t even turn on my computer. Now that is bad!