Who wants to hear about my troubles? I didn’t think so. But this blog is about me, and it is my method of documenting what is going on in my life. So, this post, as much as I don’t want to write it, needs to be written. Feel free to skim over it – I’ll totally understand – because I’m mostly writing this for me.
Over three weeks ago I started getting severe ear aches. After a false start with an incompetent Dr., the cause was diagnosed as a yeast infection by a well respected Ear, Nose, and Throat Specialist. He treated it in the office, warning me that it would take time to clear up, and sent me home with an anti-fungal cream.
The pain has continued to the point of insanity. Along with the pain I now have a constant ringing (Iggy, how have you put up with this all these years?) and almost total hearing loss.
The good news is that I no longer hear Jim snore if I lay with my bad ear towards the sky. The bad news is that he is not so lucky. He still has to put up with my snoring.
Yesterday, I returned to my specialist. Now that some of the infection is cleared up, he could see for sure what he already suspected - a perforated ear drum.
Okay – that would explain the sharp stabbing pains, constant throbbing, ringing… and on and on.
Dr. Marty is giving it a week on another ear drop to see if there is improvement. I could tell from his body language that he doesn’t hold out much hope.
If he doesn’t see improvement next Tuesday, then we are looking at an MRI and referral to a Dr. in St. Louis that specializes in only ears – and probably surgery.
I had questions.
What caused the infection. “There is no way to know for sure”
Did the infection cause the perforation? “There is no way to know for sure. It could be the other way around – the tear in the ear drum could have caused the infection”
How did my ear drum get perforated? “There is no way to know for sure. It is possible that the injury is from child hood or it could be new.”
Will my hearing loss be permanent? “It is very possible. Surgery may help.”
I had tons more questions, but it finally made it through my thick scull that he really didn’t know what the future would hold and I just need to stay tuned for next week’s appointment.
In the meantime, I’m scared. We don’t appreciate our senses until we lose use of them. A number of my blog friends deal with the permanent loss of senses. Two quickly come to mind: Intenseguy, who is able to relate to my current fear on a very “intense” level, since he has been battling with this very issue forever. Tori lives in a world of total darkness. She has faced her fears and challenges with bravery and strength that I can only dream of.
Here is to all my friends who are faced with day to day challenges of mind and body – that you find the strength to stay strong and continue facing the challenges of each new day with a smile on your face.
This current challenge may be a thorn in my side, but I promise you that I will come out of it smelling like a rose, no matter what the final outcome. It can only win if I let it. I actually found myself asking the question, “Why me Lord” and immediately responded, “Why not me…” God will never give me a challenge greater than I can handle.